I am by far the worst blogger, aye? Lol, just kidding.

To catch up a bit I am right now in WV where we came to see the movers pack and move my stuff (most of you know this from LadyMeatball’s blog) and we’re kinda moved into PA.

I’m sure mom has more info on it, and I cant talk too much as it is early in the morning (Yum, 4 hours of sleep). One thing is I have chipped a tooth. I was eating a Life Saver and boom, there it is. So we now have a full pharmacy of painkillers for until we go to a dentist the get a crown or it pulled, or w/e.

Also, I have been writing more poems. They’re not as depressing as before (I’m out of that stage thank GOD) and this is one I wrote just tonight…

MY MIRROR

I look in the mirror
to see someone I don’t know
someone changed
whom I love so
she’s so confident in herself
she loves who she is
but what is it to her?
if she cant tell who it is
she knows she looks good
and that she is loved
and that she is special
never to be shoved
she knows that she is loyal
and will fight for her friends
that she is popular
though she doesnt set trends
she has talents
in abundance, she knows
although most times
not many of them show
shes confident in her sexuality
like some people are not
she used to be shy
and most times distraught
this girl in the mirror
is this who I am?
and if it is
is this not a scam?

Okay, not depressing, but weird, yes? These things have a habit of writing themselves (at least in my case) and I think I know what this is saying.. I’ve changed a LOT this past year. I look back and think to myself “what happened?”. I dont know what it is, but I noticed it last night. I looked in the mirror (see the connection? ) and kinda had a double take. I think the poem says how envious she (I) is (am) of the girl she sees, but doesn’t think it could possibly be her. I was talkin the Hel about it (remember her from Vent stuff?) and we settled on this explaination. Its a time for us where we discover who we really are and who we’re not. Where everything is confusing, and not so black and white anymore. A confusing time, but nessesary all the same. Its not supposed to be selfishness as some would think, its discovery. I’m not boasting a high self-esteem, believe me. I’m not like that.

*sigh* Now I’m just babbling. Hope you all have a nice week or so ^_^